Dearest Marilyn,
Truer words have never been spoken. It wasn't until earlier this week that I was able to understand those words for what they really meant. Life has been crazy, and while I am sad at the loss I had this week I am excited about the things the future holds for me.
You see, this past week I learned that a friend I made years ago is not the same person that I thought she was. Then again, maybe I am not the same person either and this was just our time to finally grow apart. It's sad though because her life is going to change dramatically in the next few months and while I would have loved to be there and be a part of it that will not be the case anymore. The friendship wasn't easy, but then again all relationships that are worth it you have to fight for sometimes. This just makes me realize that the times we had when things were right were amazing. Even though most people didn't understand why I would want to stay, I knew why I was and that was all that mattered. I learned that no one really knows who I am except for myself and people can say all they want, but I trust myself and those that are the closest to me. Again, that is all that counts. We had something special, that I don't question. Life is a roller coaster with it's ups and downs, but it's knowing when you get off that roller coaster that matters. And when you do get off, you just might find exactly what you were looking for all along.
Thanks for your words of wisdom Marilyn, I really needed them tonight.
Love,
Me
3 comments:
i'm sorry things have happened the ways that they have for you my dear... sadly i understand far better than i'd ever have liked to. i stopped being friends with someone who i'd been friends with for almost 10 years last year. i know all about the bumps in friendships.. and fact of the matter is some people are ready to grow and others want to regress. and you have to cope with that somehow. but things get better and later on you realize how happy you are on your own.
for what it's worth, i've got no ill will towards you and i wish you and david all the best! i hope things only get better for you!
<3 Cacha
You have a very good attitude about things. I'm sad for you in the sense that you lost a friendship, because I know how it feels, but proud of you for realizing that even though it's ended, it definitely had it's good points. Your situation, as well as my own, makes me think of the lyrics to "For Good" from Wicked. =) It says it all.
oo Jen you are so right! For Good TOTALLY describes it. Thanks for reminding me that music is the best medicine!
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