just change your status.
its becoming insulting.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
no change of heart, a change in me
Today marks the first day of a new life, new beginning, new experiences.
I put in my letter of resignation to the YMCA today. While it was a hard to write the letter and brought tears to my eyes, I knew that deep down in my heart and soul that it was the right decision to make for myself and for my life in general.
The hard thing is, I don't have a job lined up for when my two weeks are over. But I know that God will take care of me.
I have been wanting to leave the YMCA for some time now. Those of you who know me best know when all the problems started, and it has been a tough time. Anyways, since I never left willingly the event of the past two days showed me that God has really been there for me and I know that this is Him pushing me out on my butt into the world.
I'm excited and facing the changes with bravery, courage, and faith because that is the only way that I know how to.
I put in my letter of resignation to the YMCA today. While it was a hard to write the letter and brought tears to my eyes, I knew that deep down in my heart and soul that it was the right decision to make for myself and for my life in general.
The hard thing is, I don't have a job lined up for when my two weeks are over. But I know that God will take care of me.
I have been wanting to leave the YMCA for some time now. Those of you who know me best know when all the problems started, and it has been a tough time. Anyways, since I never left willingly the event of the past two days showed me that God has really been there for me and I know that this is Him pushing me out on my butt into the world.
I'm excited and facing the changes with bravery, courage, and faith because that is the only way that I know how to.
lined paper
I was completely offended at the way the situation was handled. There were many things that were wrong, and that was the start of what turned out to be a crappy day.
Thank God I have amazing people in my life that despite my, pardon my French, bitchy attitude were still there for me and showered me with love and encouragement. Ali, Austin, Meredith, Taylor, family, thanks so much you were all AWESOME!
I’ve been listening to a lot of music to ease all the pain and confusion. Brave by Idina Menzle has become somewhat of an anthem for me and I am clinging to faith that only good things will come out of what is a crappy situation.
“If this is the moment I stand here on my own,
If this is my right of passage that somehow leads me home
I can’t be afraid, cause it’s my turn to be brave.”
God has a plan for me and right now I feel him pushing me on into the next chapter in my life that I know without a doubt will be exciting. A chapter full of self growth and discovery.
Thank God I have amazing people in my life that despite my, pardon my French, bitchy attitude were still there for me and showered me with love and encouragement. Ali, Austin, Meredith, Taylor, family, thanks so much you were all AWESOME!
I’ve been listening to a lot of music to ease all the pain and confusion. Brave by Idina Menzle has become somewhat of an anthem for me and I am clinging to faith that only good things will come out of what is a crappy situation.
“If this is the moment I stand here on my own,
If this is my right of passage that somehow leads me home
I can’t be afraid, cause it’s my turn to be brave.”
God has a plan for me and right now I feel him pushing me on into the next chapter in my life that I know without a doubt will be exciting. A chapter full of self growth and discovery.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Things Will Never Be The Same
So, I had these friends in high school (that sounds lame, and makes me feel old) and they were my best friends. But life has this funny way of making people grow apart, change, whatever the case may be. Now I understand that change is inevitable and a part of growing up but wow. At the moment it doesn’t really make sense to me. While I am happy that other friendships are growing and coming back together it just makes me sit back and wonder; what’s the matter with me that when I have tried to reconnect with people they don’t want to but with these other people it’s perfectly ok? I know that in everything God has a plan, but just UGH! I know that I am a good person. I talked with Alison today about a certain situation and trust me I was scared to talk to her about it because she does some of the things that I was upset at someone for, but there was one thing that made her different. She is a Christian, so that’s not it, it’s something else. I can’t say what it is, because then it would give away the identity of someone and just open old wounds. I told her EVERYTHING about the situation and she agreed with me. And it wasn’t just because we are friends.
In all honesty, I know that these are not the friends that I need in my life. That must sound harsh I know, and a little contradictory, but I’m trying to be honest with the way that I am feeling. I am in a good place with school and Church. I am just now comfortable with just being me and ok with being single. I am focusing on me and the things that I want in my life. I still have my days where I struggle with the whole single thing, but it’s mostly when family events are going on and you look around and think to yourself, ‘a guy would be nice right now.’ But it ends there. Most days I don’t think about it.
There are so many other thoughts that are running through my head, and trying to get them out in a way that will be comprehendible is becoming impossible. So, with that I think that I am going to go and try to organize them.
In all honesty, I know that these are not the friends that I need in my life. That must sound harsh I know, and a little contradictory, but I’m trying to be honest with the way that I am feeling. I am in a good place with school and Church. I am just now comfortable with just being me and ok with being single. I am focusing on me and the things that I want in my life. I still have my days where I struggle with the whole single thing, but it’s mostly when family events are going on and you look around and think to yourself, ‘a guy would be nice right now.’ But it ends there. Most days I don’t think about it.
There are so many other thoughts that are running through my head, and trying to get them out in a way that will be comprehendible is becoming impossible. So, with that I think that I am going to go and try to organize them.
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